C.S. Lewis Song

If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude that I was not made for here
If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
As I wait for hope to come for me
Am I lost or just less found?
On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?
is this a soul that stirs in me,
is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?
'Cos my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
And avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become

For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live,
I was made to love, I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me,Hope is coming for me

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
As I wait for hope to come for me

Late 20's.

I'm getting older. It's official- i'm in my late 20's. I can't really believe it. It always seems like a shocker every year, "OMG, I'm soooo old!"
Does it always have the same reaction the older I get?
"Wait til you hit 30" they tell me. Oi! I don't even want to think about that.
The question is, am I content where I am in life? am I happy?
I mean, I'm not married and I don't have any kids, though those are a couple of my desires.
Am I really ok with that?
I think so.
I had the chance for that life 5 years ago and it wasn't right. It wasn't the right person, nor the correct timing.
I'll admit, it's a bit difficult at times when I see friends my age who are just getting married and/or having their first child. Then I think, "That could have been me." I quickly snap out of it, shake my head and erase the thought like an etch-a-sketch.

I can't let my age pressure me. There's no rush.

God is working in me and my life in over time right now. That's my focus. And for that, I am Happy with where He has me right now.

So, here's to the big 2-8. Another year in my walk. Thanking Him for this life so far.

CHEERS!

THEN:

NOW:


















CHEERS & JEERS:

CHEERS: Going back to Fairfax for a few days, for the bday weekend.
JEERS: Feeling a difference in friendships. Close ones. Different vibes.
There's distance in the air and I can not make it leave, and I don't like it one bit.

CHEERS: Getting to see a lot of people I haven't seen in a while, at the bday lunch.
JEERS: Not getting a chance to talk with everyone.

CHEERS: Not being alone on my bday. Celebrating with Todd, Matt & Sarah.
JEERS: Birthday on a monday. Lame.

CHEERS: Hanging out with Todd today.
JEERS: Embarrassing myself in conversation. My face is still red.

CHEERS: Worship this morning at Relevant, The people at Relevant, RELEVANT, RELEVANT, RELEVANT!
No JEERS necessary.

I love Surprises!

This weekend has been completely random...but in a good way.

My friend, Ali B. came for a surprise visit.

She arrived around 6pm, I showed her around the place, sat down and caught up, and then ... word vomit. Not sure where it came from.
It went a little something like this- Conversation, conversation,this and that, "HEY! Wanna go to Busch Gardens?"
Best.idea.ever.
She was so stoked. We purchased our discount tickets and were on our way to the last weekend of Howl-O-Scream.
We had a solid time. It is agreed that rides at night are waaay better than riding during the day.
It gives you a little more thrill - You can't see anything, you don't know where the next drop is, You see shooting stars while hanging at the top.
And then you have the TURKEY LEGS.
Man, those legs are good and quite enjoyable (just don't think about what you're eating)
I don't know what it is about turkey legs. People are drawn to them and can't stop starring at you when you're eating one.It also strikes up a good conversation when you're in line. You almost want to offer them a bite.
Just be sure not to eat one before a big ride. It doesn't settle so well. My tummy was all over the place. Yet, I managed. Everything stayed down. Yummers.
All in all, Howl-O-Scream did it's job. I jumped, I screamed, I almost punched the werewolf that jumped out at me...I had a super time.

We spent our Saturday in CW (colonial w-burg)
It was homecoming weekend for W&M and downtown was packed with alumni.

On our way there, I noticed the car next to us - pointing,laughing and trying to tell me something, along with some gesture they were making with their hands.
I looked closer,rolled down my window and said...
Nothing. I didn't say anything.
They spoke up first and said "We're going to get you next weekend, it's on!" while saying that, everyone in their car shot up the gun signal.
I then realized, they weren't out to get me. They looked too clean cut to start any ruckus.
It was just a bunch of Texas Tech'ers responding to my Texas Longhorn on my jeep.
We then shared some laughs and some cut downs- All at the red light.
Ali was a bit shocked that ANY car would stop and talk like that. In NOVA you wouldn't dare see such a thing. Heh.
So, back to CW...
We walked around, window shopped and had lunch at The Cheese Shop.
Again, I heard so much about this place and yet I walked out thinking it was just "ok"
Meh, that's just me.
Now, one place I do love is Aroma's.
Such a neat environment.
We spent our afternoon there. Had a laptop party,exchanged music,online advice-shoe shopped and drank some coffee.
It was quite relaxing and cliche.
After while, Ali B. had to leave me.
I very much enjoyed her company and the surprise. Thanks Al :)

Now it's time to get back to work. I have tons to do and A lot to show.

Back on track I say, back on track.





CHEERS & JEERS:

CHEERS: Howl-O-Scream = great fun
JEERS: Not so much fun watching all the middle school'ers make out EVERYWHERE. Yuckers.

CHEERS: Mariachi's singing to me during dinner at a superb Mexican restaurant.
JEERS: Missing the ranchero's my pops used to sing.

CHEERS: Dinner with stacy at the Chinese joint.
JEERS: Eating frog legs and getting sick afterwards. JEERS #2: Our waitress asked me if I was Asian. HA! it never fails. EVER.

CHEERS: Work week has been the best since I started a month ago
JEERS: Finding out shady things about my co-workers and Principal...Shaaaaaaaaaaady.

CHEERS: Getting a hug from Ali B.
JEERS: People around here don't hug. I need hugs :(

CHEERS: Halloween coming up, trick or treaters to treat!
JEERS: Nay. I will be on the road, heading back from my voice lesson. Hopefully the zombie dear won't attack.

Do you ever feel...

like Satan is destroying your journey?

Well, he's trying with me. Maaaan is he trying.

He can bring it.

I will ULTIMATE PUNCH him in the nads. Yes. satan has nads, and I will destroy them.

The little things that bring me joy..

This site: http://www.wsu.edu/~brians/errors/errors.html#errors

Music therapy?

This is what I get paid to do...On a good day.

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God's Appointed Time
by Anabel Gillham

"Lord, I want to know Your ways, please. I don't want to be controlled by my emotions, nor by my ignorance. I want to be able to watch—unperturbed—your acts—understand Your ways."

But so often, we want Him to act now—we want to see His acts! We can't understand why He delays, why He allows this to continue, why He allowed it in the first place! "Act, Lord! Act!"

We cannot understand all the ways of the Lord. "For My thoughts are not your thoughts; neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways." That we can accept without fully understanding!

One of those ways is His timing…"God's appointed time"… "The fullness of time…"

"But these things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not despair, for these things surely come to pass. Just be patient! They will not be overdue a single day!" (Hab. 2:3 TLB)

God has heard your prayers. Right now, He is working on all of the minute details. And at the appointed time, you will hear Him say, "All things are now ready." And in His own unfathomable way… it comes to pass.