C.S. Lewis Song

If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude that I was not made for here
If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
As I wait for hope to come for me
Am I lost or just less found?
On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?
is this a soul that stirs in me,
is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?
'Cos my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
And avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become

For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live,
I was made to love, I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me,Hope is coming for me

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
As I wait for hope to come for me

Late 20's.

I'm getting older. It's official- i'm in my late 20's. I can't really believe it. It always seems like a shocker every year, "OMG, I'm soooo old!"
Does it always have the same reaction the older I get?
"Wait til you hit 30" they tell me. Oi! I don't even want to think about that.
The question is, am I content where I am in life? am I happy?
I mean, I'm not married and I don't have any kids, though those are a couple of my desires.
Am I really ok with that?
I think so.
I had the chance for that life 5 years ago and it wasn't right. It wasn't the right person, nor the correct timing.
I'll admit, it's a bit difficult at times when I see friends my age who are just getting married and/or having their first child. Then I think, "That could have been me." I quickly snap out of it, shake my head and erase the thought like an etch-a-sketch.

I can't let my age pressure me. There's no rush.

God is working in me and my life in over time right now. That's my focus. And for that, I am Happy with where He has me right now.

So, here's to the big 2-8. Another year in my walk. Thanking Him for this life so far.

CHEERS!

THEN:

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CHEERS & JEERS:

CHEERS: Going back to Fairfax for a few days, for the bday weekend.
JEERS: Feeling a difference in friendships. Close ones. Different vibes.
There's distance in the air and I can not make it leave, and I don't like it one bit.

CHEERS: Getting to see a lot of people I haven't seen in a while, at the bday lunch.
JEERS: Not getting a chance to talk with everyone.

CHEERS: Not being alone on my bday. Celebrating with Todd, Matt & Sarah.
JEERS: Birthday on a monday. Lame.

CHEERS: Hanging out with Todd today.
JEERS: Embarrassing myself in conversation. My face is still red.

CHEERS: Worship this morning at Relevant, The people at Relevant, RELEVANT, RELEVANT, RELEVANT!
No JEERS necessary.